A knock on heavens door, not just a metaphor...
Something a little harder so i can set the score...
See i saw something that made me think two years back...
I saw something that makes me bring a few tears back...
Come to think of it, at the time i did not cry...
I was shocked, did i just see my sick pop die?
I fell to my knees, then i fell to my elbows and squeezed...
Out that first tear, that you seldom would see...
I knelt on one knee, looked up and dealt him a plea...
Since you took him, take me, its selfish indeed...
I know, but at the time i was lost, broken, and broke...
I got up, and told myself to stop smokin, and hope...
But got caught up, and couldnt stop tokin the dope...
And this dope wasnt pot, it was not coke, it was dope...
Your at a dark place when you rip open that tar bag...
Tin foil, a pen tube, a lighter, its all bad...
I call that, getting caught by the devils lasso...
I thought it was a phase, i thought i could let it pass, no...
As gloomy as it got though, i never used a needle...
I told myself at that point, im sure id be through and evil...
Crude and deceitful, so i knew i couldnt stoop that low...
Saw my friends tyin off and said you shouldnt do that bro...
Everyone around me fell even faster then me dude...
And i slowly started to see the disaster it leads to...
I had a dream, i got a bag opened it up and smoked it...
Right as i went to inhale, the foil was a locust...
I saw it as the tar was the locust, the locust is a plague...
I knew what it meant, but its hard to focus in a rage...
It opened my eyes, I saw where my path was headed...
I was ashamed of myself, not something i half regretted..
I manned up, no hand reached out for me to stand up...
I did it myself, its bad stuff, i had to stand tough...
Think you've had a bad week? Try withdrawing from heroin...
It's rock bottom, its a pitfall and its embarassing...
4 days of puking, cold sweats, and no sleep...
Body aches, plus my stomach hurts i wont eat...
A week later, a warm embrace, i feel fine physically...
But the harder part is trying to heal your mind instantly...
But i did, my willpower was stronger then ever...
Instead of tar, shit i just hit the bong and im better...
Been clean two months, and though it was said before...
Sobriety for me, was a knock on heavens door...
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