im not looking for feedback really...just needed to get some shit off my chest and out of my head
not sure how to start it, but lemme do my best to tell ya,
13 days drained and depleted since the day that you left us,
you ate healthy, excersiced, and thats how you kept it,
i still don't believe it, the medical report seems deceptive.
cried out in convulsions with cholerical curses,
this isn't a flow or a cypher, it's unbearable verses,
like blood seeping thru from virgens' battered purses,
just another death from coronary athero-sclerosis.
blocked blood-lines, through time, how could we have missed it?
wish it was visibly seen like a kid who's autistic,
irrepresible anger, inside i was going ballistic,
to me a father and family, to them a body, statistic.
your still alive, contacting me in my nightmares and dreams,
broken times, twisted lines, just typing makes me wan scream,
i'll never hear your roaring laugh, or see your smile that beams,
Dear God ive fucked up alot, but this is too damn extreme.
You've worked your whole life for us, your rest is overdue
I just wish i could have said bye before you were through
i think of you daily like the top ten vids on yahoo,
Yo it's Unpredictable When Your Gone, we have to Be Without You
im now the man of the family, the head of the house,
taking over your business that i know nothing about,
leaving your kids without father, your wife without spouse,
i howl from the depths of my lungs, till i bleed out my mouth.
But its ok dad, im taking care of my sisters and mother,
ill be a good son, a loving big brother,
just give us the strength to take care of each other,
especially to mom, give signs that you love her.
thanks for being there for me, through these twenty some years,
through laughter, and anger, and plenty of tears,
your in a better place now, that youve reached the final frontier
always in our hearts, you'll never disappear
R.I.P. Dad
July 27,1961 - January 13, 2006
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