Cosign

I’m sitting here with a blank stare because I don’t know what to think
I mean who is the one that puts so much worth on a stupid drink
Watching him get beat down into submission
I know the cause too well, cause it’s like their only mission
Who does it make feel better – you or him?
So I’m a just sit here and keep asking you again and again
You’re so selfish, you just have to be the queen
To save someone new from falling as you intervene
He’s at his mecy and on his knees
While you smile thankfully 360 degrees
WHO DOES IT MAKE FEEL BETTER YOU OR HIM
I’m just going to keep asking you that again and again
Nobodies perfect but my father’s grace has said it all
Yeah he’s an asshole, and a prick, and money driven – aren’t we all?
I’ve been thru the program, I was only 14
I know they say I’m just the enabler prolly next they intervene
I think back to when my parents finally got divorced
That’s when I really got to know my father on the visitation back and forth
I know my father better than you realize and if this kills him
The problem gonna be between you and I
It’s been 3 days and once again I didn’t even know he went down
My mom keeps begging me not to go down and to stay in town
You can be at your best and a year later fall 5 steps back
The up and down of his coaster, like a personal attack
What if this kills him? Did anyone think of that?
Talking about he has to hit rock bottom – I know it all too well and I’m sorry for that
Who puts too much on a stupid fucking drink for all that my friend
And then this is where they say I co sign that shit and enable like they have no end
Nah I just know he’s minding his own business not hurting anybody but himself – my side of the debate
It’s you with the problem, consumed by so much hate – you blame it on the alcohol and become so irrate
It’s probably cause you're selfish, how dare your mom do that to you
Like you made it your life’s mission to make everyone you know stop drinking too

YO FUCK YOU.

I saw the signs in myself so I pulled back,,, I already know how my family is and I was just gonna be the next one they attack. It’s been 3 weeks now and my temper never been worse. In therapy my entire life so I see and get it all like it’s some gift and a curse.