Hell Again

I don't feel like myself
its effecting my health
Being forced to share my body
Their spirits clap my hands
All they do is demand
I wish I had a sawed off shotty
I guess this shit a joke or a game to them
It makes me sick I was even ever friends with'm
They don't do it for me
I guess they're covering up sleepwalking and marrying me
You should see how sick and far they go spiritually
I don't know how it happened or when it began
The fact I can't protect myself and no one will help I can't stand
The nightmare gets worse and worse
And they dont even have ONE fucking reason to curse (me)
I hate to even have to mention them
But I need help making them leave me and my body be
Oh I get it, it's all about you.... I see
I was praying for them to shine
Theyre praying to molest and chain me
Theyre ghost keep trying to force me to go to them for help
Truth is I never did
Just another way the try to cover up for them self
But I wouldn't even risk wasting my life over them for a bid
But God damn I wish they was dead
Im mad at God for him letting them - personally
Cause everytime I try to pray I hear please forgive me
That wasn't what I was trying to say
But somehow they go first and mustve attached themselves to me
It makes me so fucking sick
How many years of hell and have they wasted now?
Cause I didn't deserve the spell so how?
I'll never give them the easy way out
I will never help them again
I will never protect them
Stick up for or forgive them
I'll just sit here and pray that no matter what or how - this is finally going to end.

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Pin my body one more fucking time too... cause I swear I hope my family find each and every one of you.

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I'm calling out of work again and every single day I can't get this fucking spirit infection out of me. You want this job too? Take it... I shouldn't have to fight so hard to be myself and with my own family and to not be tortured and abused. So stressed I think I have shingles again. I can't even eat without wanting to throw up. FOR WHAT? I don't know how to make it all just leave me alone. Now I'm the alchy running to the liquor store every day? I'm not fighting or entertaining any of this shit when they shouldn't even be here to begin with. I really resent the nightmare instead and for so long every time my family tries to come back for me. How did they even know to begin with?

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If you bitches really did set me up to be raped in myrtle beach - heaven help you. I SWEAR.