To: Light Up

Light Up
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It’s been a long time since I’ve been on my own
It’s been even longer since I sat on my thrown
That’s not a pedestal so elevated that I’m always looking down
That’s just holding my head high to perfectly balance the crown

It’s been ages that I laughed so hard that I cried
But I’m learning to shake it all off - getting stronger inside
You can climb a mountain but the moment is when you’re there and you look
You learn that baby steps makes it and you own it because the longer it took

I’m not gonna cry today… I’m not going to sit here, sway, and stare
I don’t need the liquor, I don’t need sex, I don’t need anything to hide that I care

It’s ok…
Today (if just for the day) I’m going to stop chasing demons even if I have to pretend
I still refuse to judge a man but that doesn’t mean I don’t get the choice who I call my friend
I’m never going to look back one day and say it was all worth it or now it all makes sense
I’m just going to remember that after 1,000 days of sorrow it only takes 1 day to make it all past tense


(Stop for the hook)


Never forget something as thin and fragile as paper beats the rock
Or the cliché how many times a day is right of a broken clock
A nut… that’s just what it is, that’s what becomes - a mighty oak tree
All this is just temporary and only a matter of how you see
I thought my fight inside was extinguished for ever
Until I found strength within that moment to stand back up again and say never
And I can’t dismiss of how many times I’ve been knocked back down
All I can do is just shake my head and grin – boy I been around
No more war stories, no more speaking of nightmares
Cause even a tree gets stunted the more fruit that it bares
And before you pop back at a winter assuming she bunny
I became in the summer - was flipped – then flipped and gave it all back
I threw it all in and I lost all my money…
Me and Magic was chilling the other day and we laughed
Cause I said do I ever get it back?
Bright lights, street dreams, too many decisions breaking behind a rod or a staff
But I’ve always sucked at math


(Stop for the hook)


There is nothing more scary than insanity I swear
Or in the moments you realize those chains were felt real
While everyone assume you wasn’t even there
I’m not gonna let it make me bitter
In fact I’m so fucking tired that I even care
And I ain’t the only one tripping on twitter
I’ve never been spiteful - still laughing every time I hear “Beware”
Ceasar’s war… I never slept with a man I didn’t consider a friend before
But you know that’s all just rumors and an audio splice or two
Don’t dismiss a reason cause you just assume the season
You really can’t understand that I don’t even think like you
(Sounds like them drs too)

“Back to Life… Back to Reality” … Take 2