Growing Up

I'll turn black and blue and cause the the sun to fade/
New to this wave, familiar with the game, so I reflected pain into the shade/
can't hurt anyone, I must become someone else/
The story ended when he won, in conclusion, he hurt himself/
because he knew problems and insecurities can be seized with a little bit of weed/
thoughts and energies cant be mended-accurately without a mind-set and a need/

in this mirror house i reflect,
i drop a tear but its no longer wet,
i cant prove/ with endless views/ that inifity is apart of my set.
the ghost that was in my dreams is now in spirit,
i can no longer hear it, therefor we never actually met.

18 years old,
out in the cold,
feeling lost,
slowly crippling in his mind,
as the machine becomes the boss.

We're all brought here for no reason, just a life-form,
from the day we're born, until the day they mourn,
in the end his parents were wrong, but they did have fear,
the kids knew the lyrics to his song, his expression sang it clear,
this boy was precious, why did he wanna dissapear?

Lets be honest, happiness is now achieved through kronik (without logic)
depression is unwanted, ecspecially from an inbalance ( they dont want it )
when being happy is a challenge, we fall to drugs and booze,
show this kid life, Give him something to lose,
if you wanna know the conclusion, turn on the news.


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errah

damn this was deep as hell when u think about it, some have it easy but most of us dnt understand why things gotta be rough or why we dnt wanna make it thru this life, every has ta find their own inspiration 4 livin, this give me alot ta think about surpriseinly.....good write man

Thanks bro, appreciated. You really got what I was going for, good stufff!

This was an amazing read and good insight especially coming from an opposite but similar side. I’m glad my heart stopped growling and started beating only once or twice again to remind me. Maybe I can break free soon... if I was to say you haven’t lived until you prayed for death that’d be dead wrong and sarcastic - that’s a level no man on this earth should ever be allowed to bring you. And when some bitch tries to demand your religion and pray with but opposite of you... I just want to know how and why and who and I’m really worried about my family too. They say it’s not a war unless there is casualties - Jamie did just die and if I felt like myself and in right mind I would’ve caught the warning signs, paid better attention and would’ve at least called... And like Jay was so disappointed in me especially considering my own position and mental health. I don’t know if he will ever even forgive me now. He was so mad at me he when he heard he I knew she threatened suicide that he literally threw up... and though we talked it out I really don’t think he will ever forgive me and yeah - I feel like I dropped her too. I wouldn’t have ever if I wasn’t going thru this extra bullshit too AT ALL.

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There isn’t a day that has gone by since that I haven’t thought of it all... and yeah lives ain’t nothing to play with

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What? This just some sick game and I’m supposed to say down one now? Take that any way you like... all I have left is my real so I’m just gonna say it

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Down 2... do you know what that even fucking feels like?

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You get ONE life... that’s it. Like em said “this is no Nintendo game”

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And I’m not riding this out with some selfish stupid bitch that I don’t even know instead

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How many people are even on me?!??!?

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What do my kids want cause I’m just like my kids aren’t anyone’s business especially the way people call out so casually... only if I know my blood doesn’t make them this weak and powerless too. I was around 23 when they found me and told EVERYBODY but me.

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Like I don’t even know who I’m talking to right now... just trying to break free pretending I ever had a real one (a friend) and too make sure my kids never get trapped too and have to go thru this

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Yo you see who ever posting the craziest shit under my account... what ever was set off I’m pretty sure I didn’t even do it

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What part of I’m not going to make it do you not fucking comprehend?

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Why does everybody even let them? I don’t need a personality adjustment... I just want to be and feel like my fucking self again