Lost Ones

Lost ones

https://youtu.be/HQIIyP4Nhd0

I don’t remember much but the pit in my stomach no doubt
When I had to tell the truth with the words cause there was no way out
How you can have a child and not even never think nothing of it
When there isn’t a thing on this earth that you d ever put above it
Rubbing my belly answering her mom saying almost 5 months
But the outfit was my favorite in 6th grade and when I was lying - 10th?
Coming to a head when I was ready to confess to all my stunts
I think about more then I remember
But I remember laughing and fighting over who loved who more
Nah... I don’t want this war
Naming my daughter in a notebook but I didn’t think much about it
Cause it’s all I did ever since which at first made me doubt it
(Never even knew to)

Chorus play
(I can’t either now)

I remember when I told my mom I had my period and she made me pull down my pants to prove it
I just thought it was wishful thinking of a lie
Of an eighth grader that wish she was grown... but then the timeline they move it
Tell me why?
Its all set up as lies, A curse I grown up hard to break
Then to be chastised for and never even since been given the time to think
When I locked myself up - no medication, a dietician and spotting for a month
Then when I beat up that boy just escorted not dragged
When is enough, gonna be enough?
(No mercy?)
Just spinning in circles
My mind can’t take the missing pieces of this puzzle
It’s like when you shake your head cause you know you seeing double
2 glazed donuts and a 1/4 gallon milk every day
Visitor day? idk
Waiting outside lamaz... I th
ought it was cause the next meeting was AA
But nah this is all just absurd (cause)
I wasn’t mandated to go until the partial hospital AFTER I had to go to AFTER every day
It was after
And thru all this laughter
It’s like... I don’t even know what else to say
Like when I was running away

Chorus play

(Let 3rd vs play)

Nah... it wasn’t like that to it was like that - does he think that?

“What about your seed... “

(Over choruse)
it feels like all I ever do is for ice
And all I ever did was forgive
Not over my kids
Out side the dance - I remember someone brought beer but don’t remember who
And when I saw the color of her outfit (the picture flashed)
It hurt so bad that Jesus had to (like 2) who had helped me to shed that single tear
Cause now that I know it’s been ever since, and since another added to 5...
Yeah.... that 6 more years