Is there a reason why everyone still here?

I didn’t think much when my father said it was too late
Because I remember the purple sky and light rain every time it come to fate
Who is to hate?
I keep re running thru the memories that were lost until…
And now I can’t stop thinking – it’s like the world is standing still
(7pm we’d meet every night, had to be in by 9pm the night we kissed)
If I could just make you understand the plight
And how it is not knowing if we missed
The memories were so far away
They said it was all just lost in the tides like the beginning of each new day
Now I don’t know what to say…
Is that insane?
(The couch, the pool, I can tell you the exact spot the night of the fireworks)
But I can’t exactly explain the loss of breath or the burn every tear ever since now jerks
Or how the trust turned to pain and how now I just pray for that rain
It’s in everything after that I still forget
I only get enough clues to know it’s not exactly how I remembered
But that’s all that God let
I’ve been posting wanted posters all over the site
It’s already been almost 7 years stranded searching without a light
Is it up to you?
Cause I can’t make sense of anything now and I don’t understand it.
This here isn’t exactly a community affair
But here I go cause I didn’t know and posted shit every where
It’s not fair…

They trying to make me look like some sick, twisted, sould ass bitch
I’m trying to tell you that boy is a liability and I swear he a snitch
And them bitches over there? Just a hating ass witch
I don’t know who is tapping my ass or causing the swelling and pain
The inappropriate shit, being stalked, and THEM throwing salt on MY name?
Who’s insane?
I never took an oath with anyone but you
And I can’t understand how they do this shit and spiritually too
I’m up now, but every round is still getting worse
Someone has to go cause I’m not living a curse
(They don’t even have ONE valid reason to hurt me)

Closing my eyes, looking for angels letting go of my wheel – I’m for real
But you still looking for ways to kill me – maybe it’s time you write your will

I just want to know who…

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Waking up lighting a cigarette and falling back asleep and dropping them in my bed. What I assumed was insane was just half. Who and how many times did you throw at me for real - cause yeah I need some advice but I don't understand why I can't just send that shit back.

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It got worse and more aggressive like they were going rounds. Just trying to get to mine and my family but they are blocking me like this is some game or a joke - I don't know how they got on my body or who or how many. I wanna talk to beach cove alone NOW please